Okay, so I am going to St Simons Island on Friday and I CANNOT wait.  There are times in everyone's life that you just need that baking time on the beach.  You know?  Where you lay there for what seems like hours knowing that you are being cooked alive, but nothing can get you to move off that sweat soaked towel?  I know you know what I mean.  There is something that keeps me going back there.  I can't wait until I am able to tell everyone!!!!!!!!! 

It is summer and I am bored.  Can you believe it?  It is so difficult to go from a full day to absolute nothingness.  Rest and relaxation is not my cup of tea.  So what is everyone else up to? 

I haven't been this happy in a really long time.  I hope it is evident.  Is it?

I didn't think I was going to write anymore---but I can't resist.  It seems that this is the only outlet to problems that I cannot solve---problems that will never cease and will continue to haunt those that are burdened. 

YOU must understand that my position is not one that is envied.  I have a horrible task of doing what is right for the department and hopefully spreading the wealth as best as I can where I can.  It seems that no one is ever really happy----there is always something to complain about.  I cannot make every one of "my children" happy.  It is absolutely impossible.  I know the talent and the capabilities of each person.  I know where they excel and where they don't.  I just cannot take a chance on something that has not been proven to me 100%.  It is best for YOU---not me, the department or anyone else.  What is something went terribly wrong?  YOUR self confidence rides in my hands and that puts me in a precarious situation--one where I must protect YOU.  YOU must understand my position.  YOU must understand the horrific time I have deciding on whether I should make my decisions based on feelings or talent.  What would YOU do?  YOU must see beyond YOUR desires and think of the bigger picture.  My choices are NEVER meant to hurt YOU.  I want the best for YOU----always.  My love for each and everyone of YOU grows each and every day.  YOUR feelings and desires are not ignored.  I understand YOU.  Please understand me.